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Wednesday, March 24, 2021

New World Order (Secret of My Excess)

“Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O LORD, my rock and my redeemer. (Psalms 19:14)”
flutter maid by nendo23
flutter maid by nendo23
50 Things You’ve Probably Never Been Asked

1. What is the color of your hairbrush?
I have a comb...what?

2. Name a food you never, ever eat.
I don’t know

3. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
Hearing Rowdy Yates and The Original Country Gold

4. What is your favorite candy bar?
I don’t know, but I don’t want renal failure

5. Have you ever been to a professional sporting event?
Yes, but do those even exist anymore?

6. What is the last thing you said out loud?
I don’t know

7. What is your favorite ice cream?
I can’t really have that anymore

8. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water

9. Do you like your wallet?
‘Made from Aluminum, Titanium, Carbon Fiber, and Damascus, The Ridge Wallet is an expanding minimalist wallet that protects your cards and cash.’

10. What was the last thing you ate?
Chewable aspirin

11. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend?
No

12. The last sporting event you watched?
CBS is where one goes to see BS

13. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
Yes

14. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
I don’t know

15: Ever go camping?
No, never

16. Do you take vitamins?
Yes

17. Do you go to church every Sunday?
Not regularly

18. Do you have a tan?
NO

19. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
I’d prefer them side by side. If the Chinese food is over the pizza, it could get on the pizza and that’s something to avoid.

20. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
I don’t drink soda. But from restaurants and fast food I drink my tea through a straw.

21. What color socks do you usually wear?
I usually wear white socks...

22. Do you ever drive above the speed limit?
I don’t know, much time has passed since I was permitted to drive a motor vehcile since I am recovering from injuries and on painkillers

23. What terrifies you?
My existential dread of making some mistake that will cause someone to hate me and never talk to me again

24. Look to your left, what do you see?
Stuff

25. What chores do you hate?
The opening right past the door to the bathroom is too narrow for my walker so I have to use my crutches

26. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?
There was someone who was from New Zealand and I tried to speak with some authority on the rivalry between Ford and Holden, awkward

27. What’s your favorite soda?
No soda. Only tea.

28. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru?
Yes

29. What is your favorite number?
Positive intregers in the bank balance

30. Who’s the last person you talked to?
I don’t know

31. Favorite cut of beef?
The steak on the Taco Bell is rather fatty

32. Last song you listened to?
I don’t know

33. Last book you read?
I don’t know

34. Favorite day of the week?
I don’t know what day today is sometimes

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
No, and I back away from people whenever I am asked

36. How do you like your coffee?
In cups

37. Favorite pair of shoes?
The ones I have

38. Time you normally go to bed?
I don’t know

39. Time you get up?
Morning, honey

40. What do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets?
I shouldn’t look directly at either

41. How many blankets on your bed?
Yes

42. Describe your kitchen plates.
Paper or washable?

43 Do you have a favorite alcohol?
I don’t drink alcohol so probably not

44. Do you play cards?
Magic the Gathering

45. What color is your car?
Yes

46. Can you change a tire?
No, I doubt my ability to persuade

47. Your favorite state?
Sleeping

48. What other state would you live in?
Yes

49. Favorite job you’ve ever had?
I don’t know

50. How did you get your biggest scar?
I don’t know

Friday, March 19, 2021

Reflections of

When one is home day after day, recovering from injuries and unable to work, the days can tend to blend together and one can lose perspective. For many years, I have battled depression, and questioned my worth, finding little value to others, yet today was a day that reminded me in small ways about the significance of life.

My mother, my father, and youngest sister passed away in recent years, and my surviving sister contacted me Wednesday about getting their cremated remains to me; this task was accomplished today in the briefest and most neutral way possible, I had no real opportunity to invite her to stay for any length of time to visit about any kind of reconciliation or any kind for which I might have been hoping. Whether forced or subtly implied, any secondary agenda is not a successful way to make any progress in a strained relationship. Having weekly conversations with an aunt and an uncle on my father’s side, I had some support before my sister visited today; I can be kind and not belittle myself or perceive this as a failure.

Having weekly conversations with an aunt and an uncle on my father’s side, I had some support before my sister visited today.

“Love does no wrong to a neighbor;
therefore love is the fulfilling of the law. (Romans 13:10)”

Applejack 90’s anime aesthetic
Applejack 90’s anime aesthetic
Please consider watching “Mushoku Tensei is ART,” a Japanese animated program whose main character with whom I certainly empathized when I question my own worth.

Saturday, March 13, 2021

(¿Que, Anniversary?)

What a year it has been. On March 11, 2020, the @WHO called this a pandemic. Here's a look at what we got right, what we go wrong, and the lessons we all learned along the way. #COVID #pandemicanniversary https://t.co/sbrHoQuKwG

— Dr. Sanjay Gupta (@drsanjaygupta) March 11, 2021

“And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses. (Mark 11:25)”

Izzy is now my choild also long time no ponies ayye =w=
“BRONIES RISE UPPP!! Izzy is now my choild also long time no ponies ayye

Among “Memories in the Mist,” my father’s passing is many, and six weeks before he passed, my father expressed some displeasure with my lack of progress, basically Hoarders; it was a Wednesday morning, my sister was home for spring break, and took it upon herself to just start bagging things up and dumping them outside, where the dogs and weather could damage them. We had a dispute.

Last year, I moved out from my parents’ house and moved many items into storage space at my former apartment complex, and had them moved into climate-controlled storage. Stuff continues to be an issue between my roommate and me, but he and another friend are willing to help make some progress this weekend.